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Sunday, 6 April 2014

2014 April 6th (Diary Excerpt)



6th April 2014

Morning full of positivity with whole night filled with all the memories. Today feeling after coming out of the bed was none less than one we have after watching a blockbuster movie full of action, drama, suspense, romance and comedy at large. My morning air is in complete sync with old melodies and I am just writing this diary for an accord…. ‘Chalte Chalte yunhi koi mil gya tha… mera yaar chalte chalte…’

Till now I have not been able to quantify by how much life has changed since last week with two back to back results, though reactions from people around me, faculty and relatives just give a feeble signal of change, I will have to wait to get amplified version of it. I won’t say I am satisfied with my performance but yes I am happy. The lily will be out of calyx in few days’ time.

Now while writing this I have realized how variegated life is, at one moment it gives you things you want but slowly seeps out something, always hiding the utter nature of hers. “You walk, you run and again walk, move ahead far and far but always punched back and way back into the time with memories and moments whirling around you.”

Today as soon as the sun turns orange on west I will be leaving this college campus for last time as student (though will remain a student always in the institution called life) and I am getting the same feeling which I got when I left Doon after my tenth grade. Though people and institution changed, the way I lived life with all of them remained same. And in return what I got was always on the better side, can’t compare actually.


Wherever you live the interaction is dual classified. One is within family and then rest of the community comprising of friends and relatives. So when it comes to the former term, a name strikes called ‘CLUB 93’.What should I say now! Well it would be complete injustice to enumerate what we did together since those introductory first semester till date (will continue to do so), in these few paragraphs. Even those photographs and videos won’t be enough I must say. It all started with unprecedented trips & celebrations, continued with jokes, night walks, pranks, dance, biking, adventure, pool parties, cricket matches, chill in train, failed attempt of getting drunk, unending discussions & madness…… all support, love, care, brotherly fights accepted from heart.





It’s getting too long for today and more than that I am choking…
Few things I will miss badly short cricket matches, after dinner walk per metering the admin and hostels, forcing people to sit on the ‘pahari’ (buffer) to admire the beauty of sunset, road behind hostel on lake side, major project and yes pranking with strangers (to mention in bus from Mawli to Dabok)…..

India will win today MSD will play a great knock, just because I am travelling and I won't witness it live.


Mumbai is waiting. 







Saturday, 23 March 2013

HAD IT BEEN 20






“When you win you needn’t to explain when you lose you should not there be to explain.” 
-Hitler



Many things in life start getting importance, if not importance then at least an unforgettable story, for which you never thought much off. College cricket is the one of those for me.

13th March 2013
Semifinals of the cricket league (spanned over two semesters, for first time it was). This prolonged spanning resulted in few changes in the format of the tournament as well as many changes in the form of players in there. Talking of my own form at first I was a bit slow on footwork maybe because of the chilling winter but as the winters faded they improved. Apart from those, a good knock in the city just before the semis lifted the confidence and it was brimming up and up. 


In the practice, was feeling comfortable against all balls except a few which drifted towards leg. We had sessions of practice not with our own team but with the players of opposition too. Well speaking of opposition, I just wanted to say that this semi was a final before final.

Everything was well set, was determined to win and had the potential too. And suddenly comes the twist, at the very beginning, that due to some unprecedented reasons the 20-20 format has been curtailed to 16-16 (big hand of cricket politics I must confess). It shook me at first, at that time only I felt the plot was lost. Braced myself up and the team and thought that okay! No problem it’s going to be the same for both the team, though it wasn’t. I mean how come we can have tournaments where league matches and knock outs have different span. To be very frank this was my 21st tournament of life and 3rd of this college but never saw such things.

Let’s see how it proceeded.
Now being an active member of the club, I was having the role of doing markings and linings of the ground with some other members. Just a day before our semifinal, another decider was to be played so we had to the marking a day before. Under the scorching sun with handkerchiefs around the mouth with dark spots of sweat on it, we were on our job. I was thinking of something in mind and soon it happened when it came to lining of pitch with the remark “take 19(in metres)” instead of 20.5 metres. After few instances of argument, even I thought let them be happy and how much it will affect and settled in for 19.5 metres.


The D-day arrived, as usual my team captain kept waiting the opponent for the toss. He has got some serious traits of Nadal and Ganguly in doing that. Don’t know whether it’s a trick to play with the patience of the opponent when stakes were so high or just a habit. To be honest I as a captain never did so and has been rewarded for those punctuality by winning every toss! (Well I am exaggerating here, I have lost a few but those can be counted). As I said captains are rewarded for their punctuality and hence the opponent won the toss and elected to bat first. I was happy at that time because I love to chase irrespective of the pitch conditions. And this pitch of our college has hardly favoured batting second (another one).

It was time to make team hurdle, to discuss and few words of motivation. Well for me it was simple don’t make them play those 16 because from my past experience I always believed that our opponents were an excellent bowling side but not that good at batting, if you make them struggle a bit they will struggle hard at large. I was confident that our bowlers will do it, but as I have already mentioned that things were at high stake and these situation makes you nervous, though I wasn’t so (don’t know why, usually a bit of it helps you). A sudden change of body language did happen one of the bowler remarked “we don’t have to take wickets just get the dot balls.” On hearing that in my mind I was like what the f**k, cmon!!offence is the best defence and that too against a medium ranged batting side you are bound to attack and attack hard they don’t even get time to realise what happened but it was all nervousness that was taking the game away from of us. Innings started and opponent were going at a descent pace, but as already mentioned that they were not a strong batting side as their bowling was and hence chances erupted at the early stages and later too, but it was series of blunders that left us with nothing more than regretting. After a mixed game of play largely dominated by our opposition they posted a mammoth target of 150 in 16 for us. What was interesting to know is that my analysis about our opposition proved very accurate they were 8 down and around 3 to 4 easy chances were dropped. And most of the cricketers out there can understand what dropping chances at any stage of match do to the course of match. In the given scenario I projected of 80-90 all out.

It was innings break, I was preparing my mind with some unwanted fuzz going around (there I felt that we need a dressing room very badly or atleast some segregation from spectators). I just said to the two openers “just attack” I will manage at back, giving them confidence to hit hard. This time they didn’t disappointed me and it was attack from the very first ball, with six we started. They continued the momentum and you can get the idea of how strong we were against such an excellent bowling attack- the best of our college. We hurried into 60s in just 6 overs bowled without any loss of wicket and any shot played in fuss. Everyone was excited and the worst part was even I was. 

With around the score of 90s by the end of 11th over we were cruising and then first wicket fall. I know it slowed a bit but..what could have been done. After the fall it was my time to go out there and live up to the expectations. I always loved to play in these situation where you need to hit at least two on every ball. During my game stay in Delhi, I used to do this job more often from opening till the end. But in college team most of the time I played a role where I take time to settle and then get the run over the par rate. I was excited and this anti nature played the trick. Off the very first ball I was thinking of hitting boundaries, and the situation demanded it too. Coincidence was that I was facing the bowler which I have practiced the most in the nets during this semester (Frankly speaking this I came to know after the match, at that time I was so much concentrated on ‘hitting’ thing that I didn’t even realised who the bowler was!). Coming out of the crease I tried to cut a good length delivery, nicked it and got out. It was all blank and black. And soon we lost it. Surrounded by pain and a numb feeling. I looked up in sky, smiled and said “Once again” and left for post match proceedings.


19th March 2013
Tomorrow morning I have my minor exams. It’s been exactly a week after. I don’t want to give explanation to anyone for what happened a week before. But people out there demand, and I rarely respond to those but a remark from the guard of our college “Mein aaya tha wahan par dekhne ke liye, lekin aap to pehle hi ball pe out ho ke chale gaye” followed by a moment of complete silence with a smiling face made me realise if not to everyone but atleast to myself I need to. It was that 20 which actually made the difference if I look into way behind the actual stage where it all happened. I won’t say result would have been different, but I have learnt, things which you consider insignificant turns out to be more significant many a times.

By looking up in the sky it was not God for me, it was life’s vastness; which made me realise that never leave the feet off the ground, every time I will do it, I will be pulled back to struggle and achieve once again from a new beginning.